And I don't mind, if it's me you need to turn to

So.

Ah.

You guys know how pretty much every time someone new comes here I talk to them, as you do, well I don't really mean talk I mean talk as in talking to them over the journals which I still count as talking even though some people don't because it's a good way to communicate and sometimes they explain why they chose their name to me and I figure that it's only fair if I do the same to them and I tell them that I picked my name because in my dream I heard the word "bridge" several times so I named myself after a bridge because it seemed like a logical thing to do, yeah?

Turns out my name is Bridge.

... I'm just gonna curl up on my futon and feel stupid now.

[The writing is very shaky, with a teardrop smudging the ink here or there. The top of the page has a few half-formed letters, as though he attempted to start writing more than once, but had to stop. He is, of course, referring to events in this log, and is in the midst of having a bit of a nervous breakdown.]

i couldn't save them

i couldn't

i'm useless

spike and ghost were captured...

i couldn't do anything to help them

i ran away like a fucking coward

i'm useless, i'm useless

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